Milkshake of My Mind

I've always dreamt of being a doctor since I was little. A medical doctor to be specific. I've wanted to become a Pediatrician but later on it was changed to an Orthopedic Surgeon after I underwent a surgery for scoliosis. I'm the type of person who plans for my future way way ahead. In fact when I was in grade 2, my future is already planned. Yes, I am that matured. I already planned that time that I am going to Philippine Science in high school and UP for college to study Medicine. Out of all those plans, only the study in UP for college was granted. Now that I'm in UP, my degree is not Medicine but something close it, Dental Medicine. I should have been specific with my prayers that "I want to be a doctor of medicine" not just "I want to be a doctor" LOL.

Dental Medicine is a very difficult course and it takes 6 years to graduate. If I still want to be a doctor of medicine when I graduated, that's another 5 years. I'm scared of the time I'll be wasting but whatever I just have to trust the Lord of what He has planned for me.

I'm bitter of my current course before, it takes time to accept but now I really appreciate it and I learned a lot. But I still cannot hide the fact that I want to be a doctor of medicine not dental medicine. But wherever I may land, I think I'll do good. Yeah, that's the fighting spirit lol. :))

So for this semester, we are studying anatomy and histology in the UP College of Medicine. YAY! Dream college. Included in this course (subject) is a lab wherein we are dissecting a cadaver and see the anatomy of human body. We already have and we will be doing it for a semester. This course made me feel like a med student which felt good. I feel like I am one step closer to my dream and sometimes I feel that I have fulfilled my dream. 

Dissecting the cadaver was creepy at first. Who wants to be with someone dead? We learned that it died last August 2010 and it came from a mental hospital. We pray before we begin dissecting.  We dissect 3x a week and on Wednesdays, it's whole day. Before, I felt not eating Sinigang for dinner after a day of dissection because I see the orientation of fibers from the pork I'm eating. But now, it's like we're just dissecting a cat and the head is already cut into half longitudinally. It's difficult to search for the parts we need to study, unlike in the cat wherein it's not scary because it's not that complex. Plus it's difficult to identify the nerves, arteries, veins, and you have a lot to study and memorize. But it's worth it I know and it's an experience that is very close to my heart. :)

I want to meet someone new. I am not a friendly person
I want to talk to someone I don't personally know. I am afraid of talking to someone I don't know personally.
I want to meet my special someone soon. I don't meet new people regularly.
I want to fall in love. I want to be loved.  

It is my Christmas break already and yet I can't think of anything to post here or maybe I'm lazy to post here. But my life's not that colorful enough for a normal people to read and be entertained. Everything that's happening to me now is a new experience I am thankful of, academic-wise.