Consolidation

Photo taken at UP Vargas Museum

It's 2:39 AM and here I am blogging instead of finishing my Oral Histology reviewers. ugh. I suddenly remembered to update this blog. I swear I was productive before this took my attention. LOL. Anyways, here goes my midnight thoughts and rants...

I've actually proven that I have delayed reaction to stuff. Like when things happened, I just don't seem to care at first then eventually ending up feeling hurt and emotional a month after. And you know what, that feeling sucks! Because for all you know, here you are hurting and overthinking when in fact a month before it actually happened you thought you were alright and surviving well. It sucks when you got overthrown by your emotions but you know denying it will just make it worse. Let's be quick with healing please, time.

Why did I even push my luck when I know all along that I ain't lucky. Why did I ruin the happiness I was feeling before. Haay.. 

A month to go before Dentistry Board Exam and I'm having a hard time finding the motivation to study diligently everyday huhu. I guess this is what you call the burnout stage. Also, my brain's supersaturated already with information huhu I'm scared. I think I've forgotten a lot already. What the hell is happening with me. I'm definitely not a quitter. I should stay focused. 

Speaking of staying focused, I'm becoming laxed lately that I'm not forcing myself to study in the morning since I'm a night person and studying at night makes me focused better. However, as I've said, I'm at the burnout stage already so even at night I'm becoming less productive. huhu. What used to be studying for 6+ hours a day is now reduced to maybe 4. 

I'm down to last 2 subjects out of 24. After these 2, I'm studying the Q&As. I am really hoping I have absorbed a lot from my review since July.  

What the fuck I should not cram the boards. What was I thinking? huhu